Just dreamt of JQ again last night. It was a happy one this time, I dreamt that we were both back to being so close with each other, laughing, chatting like there's no tomorrow. I was really really happy at that time and it's a wonderful feeling that i will never get to feel again. When i woke up, i just felt so sad that it was just a dream cause it felt so real. Its so unfair to see guys being able to be close and being good friends with her without even trying and here I am trying my best but i know i will never be good enough to be her friend. 2 years and 3 months have passed since she left but i still miss her all the same, maybe even more. Its so painful to know that you are not even worth anything to anyone. All the people who left can carry on their lives normally without feeling any sadness or regret but here i am facing the full brunt of it. Am i really so worthless?